Oh, The Things I Long For

everyone has an idealistic lifestyle. although i previously addressed my longing for multiple different parts of me for multiple experiences, i  feel i owe it to those who read this to understand my ideal life. before it is put into question, i am going to write this in all lowercase letters even though i am in fact an english major. 

i think a cottage on the outskirts of town would be suitable. small enough to remain inconspicuous, large enough to be comfortable for myself and a couple pets. i think my cottage would be made of stone with moss and ivy creeping up the sides of it. a kitchen large enough to bake fresh foods in and windows big enough to provide enough light for indoor plants. a faint smell of wildflowers picked in a vase on the kitchen table. a cozy fireplace to snuggle up in front of with a book, a blanket and a cup of tea. small nooks and crannies filled with little tokens of my journey. 

a river flowing beside the cottage, teeming with live and renewal. water spirits rising from the river bed to greet me each morning. a greenhouse to grow all my favorite fruits, vegetables and outdoor plants in. a mushroom ring that points to all signs of fairies living nearby. nymphs and forest fae in the woods surrounding my lovable home. wind blowing a slow breeze on a sunny afternoon. the kind of happiness you feel when you see your favorite person, or when you smell your comfort scent, or taste your favorite food in the whole wide world. the calmness of the color blue. the passion that fuchsia pink brings. the warmth of the color orange. the serenity you find in the color black, for black merely the lack of color. 

often when i describe this ideal fantasy to people they remark that i wish to live in a fairytale. that i wish to wish away all things i have for a life less than equal to my current situation. the fact of the matter, however, is that fairytales do not have to be pretend. there are simple things in life that occur in a variety of fairytales that we already take for granted. when we give our pets a voice so they can talk back to us. when we get that happy ending to a scenario we never thought we could make it through. when we meet exactly the right people at exactly the right time in our life.i do not long to live a fairytale. i long to recognize the fairytale i am already living in.